Free Association Exercise

I just thought I would see what I can come up with today. I missed a day yesterday, which was harder emotionally than it should have been. But I was busy all day long. I drive a lot. And I mean A LOT. My kids have school 20m away from my house, so I have to drive them there and pick them up later. And my 5yo, who is still in preschool, only goes twice a week, so I have to drive out there three times for two days.

Then there are the extra curricular activities, such as Dance, Activity Days, Young Men and Young women. Of course, there are the errands that occur on an almost daily basis too.

Wednesdays are my least favorite day. It’s when I drive the most. And today, I have to drive an extra 30 miles because I’m having an allergy test to see what can be done about my dog and grass allergies. Hopefully I can afford immunotherapy.

Life just screams by sometimes. I swear every time it’s Sunday, I blink because I can’t believe how fast another week has gone by. And that reminds me that I’m supposed to teach a Sunday school class this week, and I haven’t even looked at the lesson. I’m the worst teacher. I’ve been teaching the older teens in Sunday school for about 5 years now. I’m starting to feel a little burned out at this point. The youth are great, though, don’t get me wrong. They’re amazing, but they don’t always listen. These days, it’s a huge challenge to get them to put their phones down for a 40m lesson. I usually have to ask several times during class, which is frustrating because I want them to understand that I truly do believe that what I’m teaching is important.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had cancer scares. I’ve had several moles and lumps removed, and each time there’s a certain draining aspect to it, even though at this point I should just be relieved that everything has been benign. But yesterday my Doc found another lump on my right breast, and ordered a mammogram. I did a mammo about 15 months ago, so it’s really soon, especially for someone below 40, but I gotta be preventative, right? I have a strong family history of breast cancer, so I guess I’m a potential candidate. The problem is, my mammo isn’t until APRIL, so I get to stew about it for another month. I guess since they took half my blood yesterday for testing, I can be assured that I will get some kind of answer sooner than later when they call me with my lab results, eh. If my white blood cell counts are normal, then I can probably breathe a sigh of relief and just move on with my life until I get my ladies squished in April.

I’m tired. Daylight savings is stupid. I have not yet met a person that disagrees with that statement. Why do we still need daylight savings? We don’t. It just makes people cranky. Get rid of it.

I did get a couple cool things in the mail yesterday, though. Here, lemme take a picture–

Pretty sweet, right? I love that sweatshirt. It totally sums up my life and personality. And I’m excited to read yet another new book. I’ve read Deborah Harkness’ All Souls Trilogy, and this is a recent addition to it. So I guess it’s not technically a trilogy anymore, huh? Anyway, I still have to finish Crime and Punishment, which takes turns being interesting and weird.

The characters in C&P are very manic. It doesn’t seem like there is anyone who acts or thinks normally. They all ramble. Well, maybe not all of them. Still, the story is interesting enough, and I’m sure I’ll finish it by this time next week.

Half my kids are home sick today from school. It’s actually kind of nice because I can leave my sick youngest at home with my sick oldest daughter, and I don’t have to drive out to the school as much today, and I don’t have to take my 5yo to dance, either.

I’m yearning for a vacation. As a family, we are going to Indiana this month, but I mean a REAL vacation (one without kids). Is that bad of me to say? Sometimes mothers just need to get away from their kids, recharge their batteries, and be gone long enough to actually miss their children so they don’t dread going back. Hahaha, judge all you want, I’m not going to take it back.

Okay, that’s enough. Tell you what, if you were patient enough to read through this whole thing, leave me a comment with the title of your favorite book. I’ll find a way to reward your patience and perverse perseverance. <- Say that 5 times fast, I dare you.

1 Comment

  1. Rachel April 9, 2019 at 4:46 pm

    I can’t think of one favorite book. I love Jane Eyre, Tenet of Wildfell Hall, Agnes Grey, Pride & Prejudice (pretty much any Jane Austin book), Les Miserables, Ender’s Game, most of Isaac Asimov’s books, and I liked the Chaim Potok books I read in High School.

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